will a change do me good?

for the first time in my life, i feel as if i can just raise my hand and touch it, and grab it, and hang on to it. that special "something" i knew i'd know when i found it. i thought i would be much more afraid when i encountered it. but i'm excited. always excited.
however, i have to say, i realize, being with him every day...i realize, bilib ako sa mga matagal magka-relasyon. maybe it's because i'm so used to being on my own. to just keeping silent and staring into space or getting lost in the universe of my thoughts. i have never really had to consider someone else's needs and feelings before. not to this degree. not in this capacity. and, forgive me for saying it, but it's darn tiring. when i don't feel like talking, but he wants to talk, how can i not give him my full attention. it would be easier for me to just not be there if i didn't feel like it at a particular day or time. but how can i not? my regard for him burns every day. but there are just some days when i would rather stay still. very still. i don't like him any less...i just don't feel up to it. not on that day. but how can i not be there for him?
i am thankful. because i have become this person. that he has become who he is. that we have met at this juncture in our lives. because in truth, considering our degree/s of separation--how come we didn't meet sooner? i know: because it's the perfect timing. the perfect space in time.
now i know, despite what they say, love really is a lot of work! but i don't really mind.:)