on the fence

i'm on the fence about something. my ninang and cousin arrived yesterday from the US and they'll be here for just over a week. i really really want them to come and visit me here so i can show them where i live, where i work, places around baguio. but they're not sure they'll have time to make the trip, even over the weekend. and the earliest i can join them in hot manila is saturday morning because the graduation here starts friday afternoon. what i really want is for them to come here. but i have to wait and see as they also "wait and see" about their sked. i love my ninang (well, i love both of them), and i haven't seen her in almost 10 years! but i can't just spend a day in manila...
i feel like a kid having a tantrum.:(