touch-me-not

i have no issues with signs of affection. i hug and kiss my relatives and friends. but i do have a problem with strangers--well, ok, acquaintances--reaching out and touching me, or grabbing my arm. it makes me very uneasy. very uncomfortable. even a little queasy. i guess there's just a certain kind of touch that agrees with you? i don't know. because i have some friends i'm not comfortable having close contact with, and others, whose hands i can't help but hold, or friends i can't help but hug. i'm weird? yes, i know that much. but really, sometimes, there's just a reflex that makes me recoil almost immediately from someone reaching out to touch me...sometimes, i am comfortable enough to move in closer on my own. i really don't know how to explain it. i just thought to write down my thoughts because of what happened this morning--that someone grabbed my arm and i really didn't feel comfortable at all. so i tried to subtley "struggle" out of the grasp.